Animal Bereavement

Animal Bereavement

Day 6

So I've made it through the weekend with intermitent tears and smiles.
When the grief comes it's like a dead weight that saps all the energy from your body.
It makes your legs arms and head heavy.
There is a sadness so uncontrallable it makes you want to lock the world out.
I understand the vicious circle where you sit and feel sorry for yourself which spirals into more sitting and feeling sorry for yourself and then more sitting and feeling sorry for yourself.
It must be the same with exercise for some.
I trained yesterday for the first time in 2 weeks and felt immediately better for a period of time.
Each day I go a bit longer without a tear. Each day my heart feels a bit stronger but its hard,very hard and sometimes it harder than others.